wow its been so long since i have been here its kinda scary. wow a lot has happened since the last time i wrote. well here is whts been goin on since then. been workin my ass off at wrk and ya i still love my job even though i want to kill one of my managers buti think thts normal oh well but i have gotten a lot closer with my friends lately we have been doing more goin to the movies and just hangin out bein stupid haha anywho oh i finally did get my first tattoo whee and now i want another one, and i no longer live in midland anymore i live in stanton small freakin town theres no traffic light well there was but they took it down i have been goin to the movies more i have seen ninja assan. avatar i seen tht twice and i seen alvin and the chipunks the fantastic mister fox paranormal activity tht movie scared the hell out of me but still the best sccary movie i have seen adn i really dnt so sccary movies oh and i have started tlkin to someone new so far so good with him i hope things pan out butiff not thts ok i hope we can be friends well its 3 in the mornign i need to try to sleep probnot gonna happen but i can try nite all have a safe adn a happy new year.

ok to understand wht im tlkin about my grandmaw died monday afternoon. i was here at home whn she passed i had come back home to get so sleep well tht really didnt happen but that is beside the point i mean tht today i couldnt even go and see her in the fureral home i just couldnt and then goin to the house and rememberin how things were adn then seeomg her chair adn her not in it and how the house felt so hollow and empty i wasnt all tht close to her but but still i cried all the way back to my house and it felt as if someone was tryin to rip my heart out ansd it still does its goin to be a long two days so for all who now my number u can call me if u want love u all

HELL YA THE DISTURBED CONCERT THAT TOOK PLACE AT THE HORSESHOE ARENA IN MIDLAND TX. FREAKIN ROCKED THE HOUSE!!!! I WAS 3 ROW FROM THE FRONT AND DAMN THAT WAS THE BEST CONCERT I HAVE BEEN TO IN A LOOOOOOGG TIME. THE OPEN BAND WAS DRED SKIN I THINK THATS HOW ITS SPELLED BUT THEY ARE A HEAVY METAL BAND FROM ENGLAND WHICH IS FREAKIN SWEET AND THEN SEVENDUST CAME ON AFTER THEM AND I HAPPENED TO CATCH A DRUM STICK HELLS YA ANYWAYS AFTER SEVENDUST GOT OFF WE WAITED FOR DISTURBED TO COME ON AND IF THEY HAD WAITED MUCH LONGER IT WOULD HAVE GOTTEN REALLY UGLY IN THE PIT BUT IT WAS FUN AS HELL.SAD THING IS THE ONLY PICS I HAVE TO PROVE I WAS THERE ARE ON MY PHONE AND I DONT HAVE A MEMORY CARD IN MY PHONE I BET I CAN GET THEM ANOTHER WAY ANYWAYS IAM STILL BOUNCIN FROM IT AND I CANT WAIT TILL THEY COME BACK!!!!!

OK i dont know why it is that some guys think that they can cheat! ok heres how my day has gone, work wasnt bad busy but not bad i get a call from my x and well he hasnt talked to me in nearly 2 weeks and well he calls iam happy and ok we have still been seein each other for awhile, well when i get off work i call him and well i go and see him, i give him a massage theres nothing new about that, well when we are alone we kinda of start messin around and well i ask him if he was tlkin to a certain girl before hand and well he said ya and he asked me if it annoyed me and i said yea so then i get the feelin that theres something hes not tellin me adn i like an idoit ask if he has a girlfriend and he doesnt answer for a min or to and well the he says yea i do and wow i feel really stupid he is doing me and doing her to so wow tell me that this isnt a fucked up dream but its not so well the sad thing is that he is was my first and well i guess that i wasnt good enought for him and well all i have to say is his fuckin lose and the funny thing is i could so fuck everything up for him but iam not going to stoop that low so it will come back to bite him in the ass and i hope iam around to see it happen to.

ok the sucky thing is that its 3:17 in the freakin morning, adn i cant sleep. well theres nothing new about that. i really dont know why i cant go to bed like a normal person? well i guess there are those who would say iam not normal. but thats not the point i guess that i have so many things goin on in my head that i cant get to bed, there maybe the little face i may have to much caffine but idk, well some of the many things that are goin on in my head is iam scared to take my massage therapy test iam stressed about that and iam worried about both of my grandmothers and well there is the ecomomy but that i cant change, and iam really confused about a guy ok he's not just some guy he is my ex and well we have been seenin each other for a while we arent together or anything i guess iam the one who is still hangin on to somthin thats not there i dont knw i guess that i need to get out of the town im livein and go somewhere else that might help but it might not oh well. who know i might find someone out there thats ment for me one day i hope that he is out there.